Dear Blog,
Remember that happiness that exsisted all week. Its gone. My newly found hope in the world, its gone. It crashed like a plane going a million miles an hour into the ground. I feel like someone shot me over and over and I just coulden't die. I feel like i'm being sucked into a whirlpool. I feel like chuck when blair dumped him. I feel the pain of all the world in one person. This is when fml comes in. F.M.L!!! The saddest thing blog is that I have no one to talk too. No one understands. They try but they dont know what it really feels like to have the hope sucked out of you. I know you think i'm just being a drama queen as always but this is diffrent. This is terrible. When you think that things are turning around for you and they dont its awful. Unlike always knowing things woulden't work out for a second you get a taste of what life could be like. Then suddenly it all gets taken away from you. The birds stop singing, you stop listening to songs like hello and your realize that you should be listening to songs like happy ending because in the real world there is no hope, no glory, and NEVER a happy ending.
It hurts, it really does. It makes me want to cry and just fly far far away. Where theres no one who can hurt me and no one who can make me feel like shit. In a world where its just me because i'm the only one who can care about my feelings and care about myself in this world. To some people my feelings are nothing.I am nothing. Those people dont know how it hurts to believe in something and get it snatched away from you. They dont know how it feels to have happiness playing out and then it leaving you. They dont know how it feels to be the girl thats walked by, not the girl you stop for. To be the girl stomped on, not put on a pedestool. Don't think i'm nieve. I know there are PLENTY of girls out there that have felt hurt and invated. I know plenty of girls have felt pain, have believed just to find out theres nothing to hope for. I know people have felt worse. There are poor people dying out there but it still does not make me feel any better.
Part of me could say that I knew all along. I knew that something was up when I didn't get ignored as always. I knew something was up when there was a chance that maybe someone cared. I knew something was up when I felt something new and good inside. Who am I to deserve that? But instead I prayed that it was nothing and that maybe it was my turn to be happy. But it wasen't. Why?! I dont know! Thats what pisses me off about this stupid world. I'M the girl who prays and believes in god and goes to church every sunday. I'M the girl who works hard on school and follows everything my parents say. I'M the girl who deserves something real but instead the stupid little sluts are the ones getting what I want the most. And I cant do anything about. I prayed for a miricle and I got NOTHING! This is a dog eat dog world and I should have never forgotten that.
Now don't get me wrong. Theres hope for you readers. If your a skiny little b*tch who wears short jeans skirts and a bikkini top all the time. If your name is paris hilton and you have a billion dollars in the bank. If you have the kardashians looks and body. If your a playboy bunny who was meant to meet the super bowl winner. IF you were prince of england destined to get your diana. But if your name rymes with fariam mali then its not happening unless its a joke! Sorry but unfortunetly it just dosen't happen. So what this means for me is that I need to get out of the clouds and into reality. I am not any of the above, I'm just a stupid african girl whos always gonna get stuck with crap. And what can I Do about it? Nothing. Its life. I better get used to it.
Song of the day: Prayer of the children
quote of the day (lyrics to prayer of the children):
Can you hear the prayer of the children?
On bended knee, in the shadow of an unknown room
Empty eyes with no more tears to cry
Turning heavenward toward the light
Crying Jesus, help me
To see the morning light-of one more day
But if I should die before I wake,
I pray my soul to take
Can you feel the hearts of the children?
Aching for home, for something of their very own
Reaching hands, with nothing to hold on to,
But hope for a better day a better day
Crying Jesus, help me
To feel the love again in my own land
But if unknown roads lead away from home,
Give me loving arms, away from harm
Can you hear the voice of the children?
Softly pleading for silence in a shattered world?
Angry guns preach a gospel full of hate,
Blood of the innocent on their hands
Crying Jesus, help me
To feel the sun again upon my face,
For when darkness clears I know you're near,
Bringing peace again
I feel like those children....only worse
P.s. I now have a mortal enemy! Who cares what his freaking intentions were he made me feel this way therefore hes going DOWN!
jk, i'm not that mean I just need someone to throw my anger towards...
About Me
- Forever yours, Mariam
- My name is Mariam and through this blog I'm discovering things about the world, and about myself. Through all my blogs you'll see craziness, political insight, celebrity mania, musical interest, total drama queen-ness,all about boys, and ever changing views on everything. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it. You're about read the pages of my epic diary. Welcome to my world, and feel free to come back ;)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
"Cause I wonder where you are & I wonder what you do/ Are U somewhere feeling lonley or is someone lovin u/Tell me how to win your heart..."
Dearest blog readers!
The lyrics above are to one of the best songs ever written. And the sad part is I've lived 15 years and i've just now heard it. My parents have had the cd in the basment since 1982 and they never told me that an amazing song was in there. Maybe they were trying to raise a music deprived daughter. So what song is it? It is Hello by Lional Richie. It was performed on glee two weeks ago but I sugest you listen to the lional richie version. You'll get inspired. This si back to my appriciation for old music phase. I made a cd of glee so I could listen to it in the living room and the song came on. I was telling my mom how good it was and shes like "Sweetie i've known about that song since 1982". And I was like "You should have told me about it!" She went down to the basment and pulled out the Lional Richie album that Hello was on. She also brought up a couple other cool cds that I enjoyed. Especially the Bob Marley one. I have a new appriciation for his music. I can jam out to them now. haha :)
Even though I can talk about music forever, I am going to spare you. Yesturday was actually a pretty good day. Like I said the whole week has been fantastic and Im still happy about the things that have happened the last couple of days! Like some new songs I heard. :) But sticking away from the music aspect yesturday my friends and I had a party during lunch. It was like a picknik thing and everyone bought food and we ate together family style. It was pretty cool except for people kept starring at us. Then a couple senior guys came over to us pathetically begging for food. It was cute but we had a really good time. When I got home I walked up the hill with olivia watson and jogged a little bit. It was a good workout. Hopefully by this summer I can be someones dream girl...well i'm hopping anyways. I need to get the wheels a moving on this opperation or else it wont work and i'll be alone forever. On a more cheerful side after the walk olivia came over to use my halmark factory. It was fun. She used my card maker program for Hana's birthday present. I got her a giftcard to target and a cute little card that was shapped like a purse. My mama knows her halmark cards.
After we made the card we walked to the party. It was a suprise party thrown by Hana's parents & family with the help of 3 of Hana's other friends. I scored an invite which was awesome! When we arrived to the party we hid in the garages and when hana came back from her walmart trip distraction she opened the garage and we all yelled suprise! She was so excited and looked so happy. It was good! Her parents turned her garage into like a concessions area. They got a popcorn machine and little popcorn holders. They made hot dogs and nachos and had a ton of candy. It was cool. The theme was 80s movies so we watched better off dead and some of the breakfast club.
Her parents got a projecter and projected the movie onto this screen they hung on her garage and we all sat on blankets and lawn chairs on her driveway. There was a ton of people there but the ones you bloggers know of are : Jacob B, Olive, and olivia. While I was at the party I joined another party. My biggest sister is Sarah shin even though shes the shortest of the bunch, and then Olivia is my second big sister, and sarah is the third big sister. I'm the youngest :) It was fun because we had asain brothers from the movie that we were cheering for. It sounds stupid but we had a really good time with it. It was nonstop laughter. I needed to go to a party. It had been awhile. So that was a fantastic time.
When I got home around midnight, the first thing I did was get on the computer and read the first two chapters of the Maria and Amir story! OMG! I loved it! It was really good, and I managed to fall in love with the main character Amir. He will soon be like the new Jacob Black if I decided to share him (which isen't happening, sorry ladies). I read and reread the two chapters over and over again. It felt right. Like the story was written really well based on reality. It was nice. But in a little sad in a way because I could relate to the main character. She was painfully like the me I wish I wasen't but totally am. I guess it was a bit of a reality check. Anyways I shouldent be telling you all this. I should be telling the author! Which i'm gonna go do right now. Bye bye readers
song of the day: Hello by Glee and Lional richie. Listen to it! Please its a fantastic song.
quote of the day: I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
'cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you
beautiful lyrics to hello
The lyrics above are to one of the best songs ever written. And the sad part is I've lived 15 years and i've just now heard it. My parents have had the cd in the basment since 1982 and they never told me that an amazing song was in there. Maybe they were trying to raise a music deprived daughter. So what song is it? It is Hello by Lional Richie. It was performed on glee two weeks ago but I sugest you listen to the lional richie version. You'll get inspired. This si back to my appriciation for old music phase. I made a cd of glee so I could listen to it in the living room and the song came on. I was telling my mom how good it was and shes like "Sweetie i've known about that song since 1982". And I was like "You should have told me about it!" She went down to the basment and pulled out the Lional Richie album that Hello was on. She also brought up a couple other cool cds that I enjoyed. Especially the Bob Marley one. I have a new appriciation for his music. I can jam out to them now. haha :)
Even though I can talk about music forever, I am going to spare you. Yesturday was actually a pretty good day. Like I said the whole week has been fantastic and Im still happy about the things that have happened the last couple of days! Like some new songs I heard. :) But sticking away from the music aspect yesturday my friends and I had a party during lunch. It was like a picknik thing and everyone bought food and we ate together family style. It was pretty cool except for people kept starring at us. Then a couple senior guys came over to us pathetically begging for food. It was cute but we had a really good time. When I got home I walked up the hill with olivia watson and jogged a little bit. It was a good workout. Hopefully by this summer I can be someones dream girl...well i'm hopping anyways. I need to get the wheels a moving on this opperation or else it wont work and i'll be alone forever. On a more cheerful side after the walk olivia came over to use my halmark factory. It was fun. She used my card maker program for Hana's birthday present. I got her a giftcard to target and a cute little card that was shapped like a purse. My mama knows her halmark cards.
After we made the card we walked to the party. It was a suprise party thrown by Hana's parents & family with the help of 3 of Hana's other friends. I scored an invite which was awesome! When we arrived to the party we hid in the garages and when hana came back from her walmart trip distraction she opened the garage and we all yelled suprise! She was so excited and looked so happy. It was good! Her parents turned her garage into like a concessions area. They got a popcorn machine and little popcorn holders. They made hot dogs and nachos and had a ton of candy. It was cool. The theme was 80s movies so we watched better off dead and some of the breakfast club.
Her parents got a projecter and projected the movie onto this screen they hung on her garage and we all sat on blankets and lawn chairs on her driveway. There was a ton of people there but the ones you bloggers know of are : Jacob B, Olive, and olivia. While I was at the party I joined another party. My biggest sister is Sarah shin even though shes the shortest of the bunch, and then Olivia is my second big sister, and sarah is the third big sister. I'm the youngest :) It was fun because we had asain brothers from the movie that we were cheering for. It sounds stupid but we had a really good time with it. It was nonstop laughter. I needed to go to a party. It had been awhile. So that was a fantastic time.
When I got home around midnight, the first thing I did was get on the computer and read the first two chapters of the Maria and Amir story! OMG! I loved it! It was really good, and I managed to fall in love with the main character Amir. He will soon be like the new Jacob Black if I decided to share him (which isen't happening, sorry ladies). I read and reread the two chapters over and over again. It felt right. Like the story was written really well based on reality. It was nice. But in a little sad in a way because I could relate to the main character. She was painfully like the me I wish I wasen't but totally am. I guess it was a bit of a reality check. Anyways I shouldent be telling you all this. I should be telling the author! Which i'm gonna go do right now. Bye bye readers
song of the day: Hello by Glee and Lional richie. Listen to it! Please its a fantastic song.
quote of the day: I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
'cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you
I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you
beautiful lyrics to hello
Thursday, April 22, 2010
"Like a virgin/Touched for the very first time/When your heart beats next to mine" -Like a virgin Madonna
Hello Everyone!
I am in the worlds best mood. I have been all week. I'm serious. It was nonstop good stuff since monday. Monday was the best day of the week if you'll believe it. I have a story but I feel like its too phenomenal to tell. So maybe in a few months. But anyways you know what made tuesday realllly good? GLEE!!!! I'm in love with that show. It took me to a whole diffrent level of happiness. They did Madonna songs! YES! Ok so I want to explain the whole madonna thing to you all. I recently discovered her music and fell in love with it. Number one, because its good. Before the death of the late and great michael jackson I wasen't really a fan of old music. Sure I listened to my dads favorites (Tears in heaven, rest your love on me, one love). But I didn't realize that the truth of the matter is that music made in the past 20 or 30 years is waaaaaay better then any of the songs we have now. I promise. If you have a true appriciation of music you would understand that.
When Michael jackson died something that I regreted was the fact that I just now discovered songs like man in the mirror and human nature but they had been around for so long. Michael jackson is a great. But hes gone now. I will never be able to go see MJ do his thing on stage. So along with my facination and appriciation for him I discovered his ex girlfriend. Non other then madonna. I digged up one of her old cds and I fell in love with it. Her songs speak wonders. Their lyrically amazing but the beat just talks right to your heart. Am I nuts? Do you feel fufilled when you listen to music? Because I do. Right now i'm listening to what it feels like for a girl - Madonna. Its a good song and Madonna is a pretty good example about how you can sing something that isen't romantic and still touch people in the same way. Anyways the main point of this is Madonna is amazing, a wonderful legend and the best part is shes still alive and still has concerts. So a promise I made to myself was that I would go see a madonna concert and mark my words people I will!
I personally believed that gLee did a phenomenal representation of the greatness of Madonnas music. I loved every song. Ofcourse my favorite was like a prayer. I am obsessed with that song and Glee did it so well! I loved it so much. I sang along to every since word. Like a virgin was really great as well. The musicality of it made me want to faint. They didn't really change much about it but they just made me remember the fantastic other songs Madonna has out there. Another song that had really good vocals were the compbination of borderline and Open your heart which was the duet between rachel and finn. They made the sogn have passion. It was great. Then the band with Mercades and Kurt doing 4 minutes. They stole the show for awhile. I was like WOW! I know that mercades can really belt it out but she reminded me that she has a voice just as good as rachels. Kurt as well! He can sing it man. I thought it was a good twist to the show that they joined the cheer squad. Long story short I LOVE GLEE! :)
Songs of the day:
Like a prayer
Like a virgin
Open your heart/Borderline
Express yourself
Crazy for you
What if feels like to be a girl
BOTH THE GLEE VERSIONS AND THE MADONNA VERSIONS
I am in the worlds best mood. I have been all week. I'm serious. It was nonstop good stuff since monday. Monday was the best day of the week if you'll believe it. I have a story but I feel like its too phenomenal to tell. So maybe in a few months. But anyways you know what made tuesday realllly good? GLEE!!!! I'm in love with that show. It took me to a whole diffrent level of happiness. They did Madonna songs! YES! Ok so I want to explain the whole madonna thing to you all. I recently discovered her music and fell in love with it. Number one, because its good. Before the death of the late and great michael jackson I wasen't really a fan of old music. Sure I listened to my dads favorites (Tears in heaven, rest your love on me, one love). But I didn't realize that the truth of the matter is that music made in the past 20 or 30 years is waaaaaay better then any of the songs we have now. I promise. If you have a true appriciation of music you would understand that.
When Michael jackson died something that I regreted was the fact that I just now discovered songs like man in the mirror and human nature but they had been around for so long. Michael jackson is a great. But hes gone now. I will never be able to go see MJ do his thing on stage. So along with my facination and appriciation for him I discovered his ex girlfriend. Non other then madonna. I digged up one of her old cds and I fell in love with it. Her songs speak wonders. Their lyrically amazing but the beat just talks right to your heart. Am I nuts? Do you feel fufilled when you listen to music? Because I do. Right now i'm listening to what it feels like for a girl - Madonna. Its a good song and Madonna is a pretty good example about how you can sing something that isen't romantic and still touch people in the same way. Anyways the main point of this is Madonna is amazing, a wonderful legend and the best part is shes still alive and still has concerts. So a promise I made to myself was that I would go see a madonna concert and mark my words people I will!
I personally believed that gLee did a phenomenal representation of the greatness of Madonnas music. I loved every song. Ofcourse my favorite was like a prayer. I am obsessed with that song and Glee did it so well! I loved it so much. I sang along to every since word. Like a virgin was really great as well. The musicality of it made me want to faint. They didn't really change much about it but they just made me remember the fantastic other songs Madonna has out there. Another song that had really good vocals were the compbination of borderline and Open your heart which was the duet between rachel and finn. They made the sogn have passion. It was great. Then the band with Mercades and Kurt doing 4 minutes. They stole the show for awhile. I was like WOW! I know that mercades can really belt it out but she reminded me that she has a voice just as good as rachels. Kurt as well! He can sing it man. I thought it was a good twist to the show that they joined the cheer squad. Long story short I LOVE GLEE! :)
Songs of the day:
Like a prayer
Like a virgin
Open your heart/Borderline
Express yourself
Crazy for you
What if feels like to be a girl
BOTH THE GLEE VERSIONS AND THE MADONNA VERSIONS
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
"I gotta pocket, gotta picket full of sunshine/I gotta love and I know that its all mine oh oh oh oh oh!"
Hey Readers, Lovers, and friends,
How are you all doing? I am doing supercalafradjalisticespialadocios! If you read it you will realize thats a word and what it means is MARIAM IS DOING GOOD! Why the reason for all caps? Don't you all wish you know. Today was a pretty fantastic day because yesturday was one of the best days I have had in a long time. Yay! I really hope you all are as happy as I am readers, because then the world would be smiling. Yup I am that happy and the last paragraph was really that cheesy. But hey? I'm just being me. Oh and for the record I am not this happy because I am high! I dont do drugs and I never will. But today is a little holiday that I found out about a couple years ago. Ever heard people talk about 420?
Every year on april 20th people decide to skip whatever is important in their lives and get high. No joke, and the seniors at my school decided to make 420 senior skip day. They all were gonna skip school and get high together. Pathetic bunch of losers huh? If you love me all, heck even if you dont love me dont participate in 420. You want to know why? 1. Its illegal, and once something goes on your record it never comes off. 2. Right now it seems like the "high" feeling is amazing but one day your brain is gonna hit a point where its so "high" you can never come back to reality. In other words, you'll be in high school forever because you wont be able to physically learn anything. 3. If you get high you wont be able to have babies, it is scientifically proven. I learned about it in health. So those are just 3 reasons why you shoulden't be the biggest fool on the planet on 420. Do something productive. Oh and one more thing. As my cousin pointed out a lot of people celebrate today thinking it was bob marley and they are celebrating his legacy by smoking. One, I love bob marley and his music and I celelbrate him by buying songs and spreading his songs not by smoking weeds. And two Bob Marley was born Feb. 6th. Waita prove my point on the "high" feeling staying in your brain forever.
You will not believe whats been happening to me latley. So I go to school and all throughout the day people say things and I'm like, "ooh as soon as I get home i'm gonna blog about that." Then I get on the computer and it all just escapes my mind. So I guess i'm going to do a little current events. Well we all heard about that terrible volcano up in iceland right? WELL; for the past week people could not fly into europe or out of it. It dosen't seem like a big deal but imagine going on vacation, spending all your money because you know your coming home on a certain day, then being stranded in a foreign country with no money. It sucks dosen't it. This happed to a lot of people and cost the airlines a total of 1 billion dollers. It finally cleared up today though, and people were able to fly through heathrow which is one of the biggest airports in the world.
Today I learned about something that everyone needs to know about. Theres somethign called Carbon Monixide poising. What happens is you begin to have a Carbon monixide imbalcnce in your home and it can be deadly. Theres alarms for it just like smoke detectors and everyone should get one. I don't have one but I am currently pushing my parents to by one. What happens is you start expirencing terible headaches and shortness of breath. It feels like no big deal and when you go to the doctors office, they can't find anyhting wrong with you. If you fall asleep in a house that has carbon monixide poising you and your whole family can die. Tommorow i'll tell you a story about it. Right now i'm off to AMERICAN IDOL AND GLEE!
Love you readers
Song of the day: Vogue - Modonna in honor of Glee
quote of the day: "Thank God Billy and Scottyu aren't here because 2 gays and my wife in an antic shop is *Dean Mcdermet shivers*
The second quote is also from Tori and dean. "Do I have a touch for certaint things - Tori" Of course you do, thats why I put a ring on your finger". :) I thought that was the cutest quote ever
How are you all doing? I am doing supercalafradjalisticespialadocios! If you read it you will realize thats a word and what it means is MARIAM IS DOING GOOD! Why the reason for all caps? Don't you all wish you know. Today was a pretty fantastic day because yesturday was one of the best days I have had in a long time. Yay! I really hope you all are as happy as I am readers, because then the world would be smiling. Yup I am that happy and the last paragraph was really that cheesy. But hey? I'm just being me. Oh and for the record I am not this happy because I am high! I dont do drugs and I never will. But today is a little holiday that I found out about a couple years ago. Ever heard people talk about 420?
Every year on april 20th people decide to skip whatever is important in their lives and get high. No joke, and the seniors at my school decided to make 420 senior skip day. They all were gonna skip school and get high together. Pathetic bunch of losers huh? If you love me all, heck even if you dont love me dont participate in 420. You want to know why? 1. Its illegal, and once something goes on your record it never comes off. 2. Right now it seems like the "high" feeling is amazing but one day your brain is gonna hit a point where its so "high" you can never come back to reality. In other words, you'll be in high school forever because you wont be able to physically learn anything. 3. If you get high you wont be able to have babies, it is scientifically proven. I learned about it in health. So those are just 3 reasons why you shoulden't be the biggest fool on the planet on 420. Do something productive. Oh and one more thing. As my cousin pointed out a lot of people celebrate today thinking it was bob marley and they are celebrating his legacy by smoking. One, I love bob marley and his music and I celelbrate him by buying songs and spreading his songs not by smoking weeds. And two Bob Marley was born Feb. 6th. Waita prove my point on the "high" feeling staying in your brain forever.
You will not believe whats been happening to me latley. So I go to school and all throughout the day people say things and I'm like, "ooh as soon as I get home i'm gonna blog about that." Then I get on the computer and it all just escapes my mind. So I guess i'm going to do a little current events. Well we all heard about that terrible volcano up in iceland right? WELL; for the past week people could not fly into europe or out of it. It dosen't seem like a big deal but imagine going on vacation, spending all your money because you know your coming home on a certain day, then being stranded in a foreign country with no money. It sucks dosen't it. This happed to a lot of people and cost the airlines a total of 1 billion dollers. It finally cleared up today though, and people were able to fly through heathrow which is one of the biggest airports in the world.
Today I learned about something that everyone needs to know about. Theres somethign called Carbon Monixide poising. What happens is you begin to have a Carbon monixide imbalcnce in your home and it can be deadly. Theres alarms for it just like smoke detectors and everyone should get one. I don't have one but I am currently pushing my parents to by one. What happens is you start expirencing terible headaches and shortness of breath. It feels like no big deal and when you go to the doctors office, they can't find anyhting wrong with you. If you fall asleep in a house that has carbon monixide poising you and your whole family can die. Tommorow i'll tell you a story about it. Right now i'm off to AMERICAN IDOL AND GLEE!
Love you readers
Song of the day: Vogue - Modonna in honor of Glee
quote of the day: "Thank God Billy and Scottyu aren't here because 2 gays and my wife in an antic shop is *Dean Mcdermet shivers*
The second quote is also from Tori and dean. "Do I have a touch for certaint things - Tori" Of course you do, thats why I put a ring on your finger". :) I thought that was the cutest quote ever
Monday, April 19, 2010
"My friend showed me pictures of his kids, and all I could show him was a picture of my cribs .../his kid got a report card all I got is a sports car"
Hey Readers! I have found a new love, that is replacing you in my sweet heart. That is why I haven't blogged for most of the weekend. I began to write about the story that has been playing in my head for years. The story of Mary and Amir. Although the parts that Samira read to me before were much more well written, its been fun to just write through it from myself. The lyrics of the day are from teh song "Welcome to Heartbrake" by Kanye West. I had to edit it just a little bit so I could fit it in. I'm sure you fanatics caught unto that. I had actually never heard it before today when this guy told me it was his favorite song. I figured if it was his favorite, then it had to be a good song. I was right, it was pretty good, classic Kanye West stuff. I'm hoping he didn't get mad at me because me and my big mouth went and said kanye was a jerk. You should always be careful who you insult when it comes to celebrities because the one you hate could be another persons icon. I need to work on my polite conversation skills.
So on saturday I finally made it to private drivers ed! I know you guys are all just really excited by the news. Just kidding. It was acutally a pretty intresting class and I learned some things. Larry the guy who was teaching us was really funny. He started driving when he was 7 years old and has been driving for 62 years. He said he taught half of lawrence to drive. He said he had taught people that ranged from age 14 to 82. And the 82 year old lived another 10 years after that! That just cracked me up for some reason. The class lasted 8 hours and started early in the morning. I got way behind on sleep. But now I know what to do when a train comes. For the record the answer to what to do is STOP! You cannot beat the train. It weights a kajillion pounds more then you.
On sunday I went to church in the morning with my momma and brother. It was pretty good but my mind kind of went elsewhere during the service. I need to work on being a better christian and fast. I was talking to my mom this morning and i'm starting to feel like this is it. As in this is it for the world not like this is it michael jackson. With all these earthquakes happening, the hurricanes, and a volcano actually erupting! Thats crazy. A volcano hasen't errupted in years. I'm starting to worry and people need to find God and fast. Pray people, for forgivness and maybe the world can keep going and the horrors will stop. I'm worried.
This is completley off subject but I learned about someone pretty cool in spanish today. Her name was Eva Peron, or Evita. Shes like the south american Princess Diana. She grew up kind of poor and slept her way to the top. Soon she was married to the future president of Argentina. Eventually he made it and became president and together they ruled. Eva died her hair blond and they lived a great life. Eva donating to charity, the money that she stole from the people themselves. She was really loved though. But then at 33 she was discovered to have cancer of the private parts. I cant think of the scientific word for it. She was dying and quickly. She managed to attend her husbands reelection but died soon after that. when she passed the people went mad and all wanted to see her so they were granted that. Her husband decided he would preserve ever organ she had and every inch of her then put her on this high statue for everyone to see. The idea sounded hella creepy to me. It gave me the shivers. Eventually something didn't work out and they had to flee the country. The body of Eva was preserved, 2 years later but it had to be sent to italy. All that work and she was burried. But eventually the argentinian people demanded she be unburried and then I saw the scarriest thing. They showed us how well preserved she was. I saw a dead person. It was scarry stuff people, scary stuff.
Our spanish teacher tells us that most american people are preserved. Apperentaly they take all your organs out and fill you up with some kind of fluid. That is NOT the african way to do things and it does not sound goood to me. What do yo guys think?
song of the day: Don't cry for me Argentina - Evita Peron and Welcome to Heartbreak - Kanye West
quote of the day: Life is hard. After all, it kills you. - Katherine Hepburn
So on saturday I finally made it to private drivers ed! I know you guys are all just really excited by the news. Just kidding. It was acutally a pretty intresting class and I learned some things. Larry the guy who was teaching us was really funny. He started driving when he was 7 years old and has been driving for 62 years. He said he taught half of lawrence to drive. He said he had taught people that ranged from age 14 to 82. And the 82 year old lived another 10 years after that! That just cracked me up for some reason. The class lasted 8 hours and started early in the morning. I got way behind on sleep. But now I know what to do when a train comes. For the record the answer to what to do is STOP! You cannot beat the train. It weights a kajillion pounds more then you.
On sunday I went to church in the morning with my momma and brother. It was pretty good but my mind kind of went elsewhere during the service. I need to work on being a better christian and fast. I was talking to my mom this morning and i'm starting to feel like this is it. As in this is it for the world not like this is it michael jackson. With all these earthquakes happening, the hurricanes, and a volcano actually erupting! Thats crazy. A volcano hasen't errupted in years. I'm starting to worry and people need to find God and fast. Pray people, for forgivness and maybe the world can keep going and the horrors will stop. I'm worried.
This is completley off subject but I learned about someone pretty cool in spanish today. Her name was Eva Peron, or Evita. Shes like the south american Princess Diana. She grew up kind of poor and slept her way to the top. Soon she was married to the future president of Argentina. Eventually he made it and became president and together they ruled. Eva died her hair blond and they lived a great life. Eva donating to charity, the money that she stole from the people themselves. She was really loved though. But then at 33 she was discovered to have cancer of the private parts. I cant think of the scientific word for it. She was dying and quickly. She managed to attend her husbands reelection but died soon after that. when she passed the people went mad and all wanted to see her so they were granted that. Her husband decided he would preserve ever organ she had and every inch of her then put her on this high statue for everyone to see. The idea sounded hella creepy to me. It gave me the shivers. Eventually something didn't work out and they had to flee the country. The body of Eva was preserved, 2 years later but it had to be sent to italy. All that work and she was burried. But eventually the argentinian people demanded she be unburried and then I saw the scarriest thing. They showed us how well preserved she was. I saw a dead person. It was scarry stuff people, scary stuff.
Our spanish teacher tells us that most american people are preserved. Apperentaly they take all your organs out and fill you up with some kind of fluid. That is NOT the african way to do things and it does not sound goood to me. What do yo guys think?
song of the day: Don't cry for me Argentina - Evita Peron and Welcome to Heartbreak - Kanye West
quote of the day: Life is hard. After all, it kills you. - Katherine Hepburn
Friday, April 16, 2010
" A thousand miles seems pretty far but they've got trains and plains and cars i'd walk to you if I had no other way..."
Hello Readers! I exactly what is on all your minds... TGIF (Thank God its Friday!). Unless you work weekends, but my figners are crossed taht you dont. The long awaited friday has arrived. This week has been a little rough for me starting with a chemistry test and ending with an algebra 2 test. But I'm confident I did well on both. Yesturday I told you all a little big about contest but now i'm going to eleborate on some little details that are worth the meantion. I always tell you guys some places to find good, wholesome, nice boys. Last time I believe I talked to you about epispicol boys but this time i'll give you a diffrent kind of boy located near you...Choir Boys. Aww, they blew me away with their sweetness yesturday during contest.
Not only did they sound amazingly good but when I walked of the bus and into Topeka West High School I was greated by a boy in a tux holding the door open for everyone, thats 280 people. He had a big smile on his face. Entering the Room I found a line of Men in Green Robes (Meaning they go to Freestate), and they waited at the edge of the wall untill every one of us girls got a seat! I'm serious :) It was the kindest thing ever. Some of them didnt sit down the whole time. Then when we were dont with our performance we got a standing ovation from the freestate guys. They all clapped and yelled and whistled. Their just the sweetest guys. Go for them ladies, and I'm sure you have a school choir. More often then not the boys who do sign up for choir are gentlemen who were raised right!
I also told you that the orchestra went to concert yesturday. Well we got a one!! Isen't that awesome. Unlike choir its rare for the freestate orchestra to get a one. It was the fourth one ever! We did goood. I was proud of the orchestra, but our teacher is a little on the embarassing side. Ms. Bassow is fairly nice, I mean she ahs her days like everyone else. Shes a senior citizen who is "happily" married, I know this because Taz caught her kissing her husband before the concert in teh orchestra room. Anyways she shows up to school wearing a tuxedo on the day of concert. She also has really short hair, so she looked like a man. I felt really bad for her. She had on the suit jacket and everything. She said one year they actually introduced her as a man for concert and apperently she wears this every year. Some people should not be allowed to dress themselves in the morning.
Something weird happened, well not really. So its the end of the day right. And everyday when the clock ticks 3:05 I leave computer applications. Today it was actually a really fun class because we got to watch Eagle eye which is an amazing movie by the way! I can't really begin to explain it, just know its worth seeing and its very easy to get into the plot. Anyways we finished watching eagle eye and I went down to the main stairs to find JD and his boys there as usual. They were talking and he was pretty cute and I walked by him. I was/am starting to get over him as I meantion before but as I come from my locker I waved to Sarah and was smiling then I turn around and JD was looking at me, or in my direction. And he takes off and walks pretty closly behind me. Not creepy close, but close. I ofcourse get smiley and couldent even control myself. It looks like he might say something....then he dosen't. When I turn the cornor to head for the door he stops and talks to non other then plan (old crush, he was a taller version of prince but at the end of the day they didn't compare). Anyways that was a little end of the day excitment for me.
song of the day: Anything starting with Hey. In the world of my ipod that means... Hey Mama - Kanye West, Hey Stephan - Taylor Swift, Hey there Delilah- Plain White Tees, and Hey, Soul Sister - Train
Quote of the day: There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. - Lucas Scott from One Tree Hill
newsflash of the day: Kim Kardashian not only did a nude photoshoot to show insecure girls to love their curves, but she went on her first after reggie date with a Spanish Soccer Player from Madrid. Reggie Bush Who?
My Favorite Gossip Girl Stars were, and some still are all dating each other. Leighten Messier who plays Blair was with Sebastian Stan who plays a bad guy. They broke up this Week. Ed Westwicl (AWWWW!) who plays chuck was with Jessica Szohor who he dumped earlier this week for cheating on him with his best friend! Scandalous! I wonder if this will effect the show. But then when you think about some of the OTH stars were married and divorced and the show is still going so I hope its no biggie
Not only did they sound amazingly good but when I walked of the bus and into Topeka West High School I was greated by a boy in a tux holding the door open for everyone, thats 280 people. He had a big smile on his face. Entering the Room I found a line of Men in Green Robes (Meaning they go to Freestate), and they waited at the edge of the wall untill every one of us girls got a seat! I'm serious :) It was the kindest thing ever. Some of them didnt sit down the whole time. Then when we were dont with our performance we got a standing ovation from the freestate guys. They all clapped and yelled and whistled. Their just the sweetest guys. Go for them ladies, and I'm sure you have a school choir. More often then not the boys who do sign up for choir are gentlemen who were raised right!
I also told you that the orchestra went to concert yesturday. Well we got a one!! Isen't that awesome. Unlike choir its rare for the freestate orchestra to get a one. It was the fourth one ever! We did goood. I was proud of the orchestra, but our teacher is a little on the embarassing side. Ms. Bassow is fairly nice, I mean she ahs her days like everyone else. Shes a senior citizen who is "happily" married, I know this because Taz caught her kissing her husband before the concert in teh orchestra room. Anyways she shows up to school wearing a tuxedo on the day of concert. She also has really short hair, so she looked like a man. I felt really bad for her. She had on the suit jacket and everything. She said one year they actually introduced her as a man for concert and apperently she wears this every year. Some people should not be allowed to dress themselves in the morning.
Something weird happened, well not really. So its the end of the day right. And everyday when the clock ticks 3:05 I leave computer applications. Today it was actually a really fun class because we got to watch Eagle eye which is an amazing movie by the way! I can't really begin to explain it, just know its worth seeing and its very easy to get into the plot. Anyways we finished watching eagle eye and I went down to the main stairs to find JD and his boys there as usual. They were talking and he was pretty cute and I walked by him. I was/am starting to get over him as I meantion before but as I come from my locker I waved to Sarah and was smiling then I turn around and JD was looking at me, or in my direction. And he takes off and walks pretty closly behind me. Not creepy close, but close. I ofcourse get smiley and couldent even control myself. It looks like he might say something....then he dosen't. When I turn the cornor to head for the door he stops and talks to non other then plan (old crush, he was a taller version of prince but at the end of the day they didn't compare). Anyways that was a little end of the day excitment for me.
song of the day: Anything starting with Hey. In the world of my ipod that means... Hey Mama - Kanye West, Hey Stephan - Taylor Swift, Hey there Delilah- Plain White Tees, and Hey, Soul Sister - Train
Quote of the day: There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up. - Lucas Scott from One Tree Hill
newsflash of the day: Kim Kardashian not only did a nude photoshoot to show insecure girls to love their curves, but she went on her first after reggie date with a Spanish Soccer Player from Madrid. Reggie Bush Who?
My Favorite Gossip Girl Stars were, and some still are all dating each other. Leighten Messier who plays Blair was with Sebastian Stan who plays a bad guy. They broke up this Week. Ed Westwicl (AWWWW!) who plays chuck was with Jessica Szohor who he dumped earlier this week for cheating on him with his best friend! Scandalous! I wonder if this will effect the show. But then when you think about some of the OTH stars were married and divorced and the show is still going so I hope its no biggie
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Contest day: "Hear though how soft, how saaad his voiice is ever Kalling (yes with a k)"
Hey Everyone! Guess what? Im really excited about something that I just saw on yahoos main page. Ok a couple of days ago, I told you all that you can save the world with love. I know it sounds cheesy but the true story is that this can save the world. So wheres this going? Well there was a bank robbary and this man had a gun and he you know said " hand over the money". So big guy goes up to him and gives him a big bear hug. It stoped the robbery until the police shows up. I know he wasen't really trying to save thew world, he was just trying to stop the robber. But what he didnt realize was that he was taking my advice and stopping one person from ruining the life of others. So go out and hug someone, now I didnt say feel someone up and be a creeper, I said hug someone :)
Today was one of the funnest school days ever. I really enjoyed it. I woke up early in the morning, 5:45 am to get ready for the choir concert. I dressed up. I wore my cute red barcelona dress, with the tights and no jewlary because thats the choir code. I felt really good and pretty. I'm not trying to be vain or anything but every once in awhile its good to take a look at yourself and feel fabulous. so I was all ready to go and arrived to school. Put on a robe and I was ready to go. Where was the choir going you asked? Well teh choir was going to Topeka West High School to sing in the bad room. I know it dosen't sound ideal, but its a really big deal for the lawrence school district. The Freestate choir has never gotten anything but the highest score which is a one. My combined womans choir along with the other 2 choirs that went kept the tradition going and we all got ones! Yay Freestate choir!
The orchestra also performed, and I dont know what our score is. I'll keep you posted.
So its been a long time since I talked about...JD. I know you readers are probably crying thinking, nooo I thought she was over it. I think i'm getting there but today he most definatly noticed me in my little red dress. We made eye contact when he frist arrived in the lunch room and he gave me this look that made me feel soooo good. He got a little smile and for the first time in a long time he stayed in the cafeteria for lunch. I have to say when I talk about him I dont get as overwhelming of a feeling as with that other boy. I dont feel as deeply for him but he sure can make me smile.
song of the day: Rosamadrye, Choreagraphy, Negra Soom, And she weeps over Rahoon. All the pieces we sang/performed for contest today.
quote of the day: Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.
Today was one of the funnest school days ever. I really enjoyed it. I woke up early in the morning, 5:45 am to get ready for the choir concert. I dressed up. I wore my cute red barcelona dress, with the tights and no jewlary because thats the choir code. I felt really good and pretty. I'm not trying to be vain or anything but every once in awhile its good to take a look at yourself and feel fabulous. so I was all ready to go and arrived to school. Put on a robe and I was ready to go. Where was the choir going you asked? Well teh choir was going to Topeka West High School to sing in the bad room. I know it dosen't sound ideal, but its a really big deal for the lawrence school district. The Freestate choir has never gotten anything but the highest score which is a one. My combined womans choir along with the other 2 choirs that went kept the tradition going and we all got ones! Yay Freestate choir!
The orchestra also performed, and I dont know what our score is. I'll keep you posted.
So its been a long time since I talked about...JD. I know you readers are probably crying thinking, nooo I thought she was over it. I think i'm getting there but today he most definatly noticed me in my little red dress. We made eye contact when he frist arrived in the lunch room and he gave me this look that made me feel soooo good. He got a little smile and for the first time in a long time he stayed in the cafeteria for lunch. I have to say when I talk about him I dont get as overwhelming of a feeling as with that other boy. I dont feel as deeply for him but he sure can make me smile.
song of the day: Rosamadrye, Choreagraphy, Negra Soom, And she weeps over Rahoon. All the pieces we sang/performed for contest today.
quote of the day: Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat it.
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