3/12/10

I know now that school is over I should be talking about anything but it but this is a good story so listen up. In Epic Traditions class we were reading the Odyssey and Odysseus the main character is lost for like 20 years. And although there are many mythical challenges he faces one of them is staying faithful to his wife. And we have lit circles so we can basically discuss whatever we want into the book so that was one of my groups topics. And then this girl talked about mentally cheating versus physical cheating. She meantion then fact that if the man mentally wishes he would be cheating you isen't it the same thing. Whether he does it or not? Im not sure exactly where I stood on that topic in paticular but I can definatly understand how that would hurt if you were dating someone who wanted more than anything to be with somene else. Anyways I thought it was a cool new term that gives you something to think about. Are you a mental cheater? Would you mind if someone mentally cheated on you?? hmmm

So the personal goals of mine for this year have been increaing in the last 3 months. One of them from the very beginning was ofcourse learning to play guitar. And then I also wanted to loose weight (I haven't gotten anywhere on that. I lost a little and gained it back. Still working on my parents for permission for quick trim). Another goal of mine that I havent talked about was becoming a better cook. I think I am a pretty good cook. There are quite a few recipies I know, and I can definatley cook anything if you give me a recipie. But theres lots of things that I havent tried cooking. So from the middle of that month to this month I cooked a little mexican food. I can make chicken qusadillas and tacos ( as of today). Over spring break im gonna try and work more on that but the issue with cooking is the eating that comes afterwards. Last summer I wanted to take a cake decorating class but that clashes with the weight loss goal. What comes with decorating cake is eating frosting which isen't so great. I guess we need to find balance.

Some big news in the world is move over Bill Gates, and Warren Buffet who? Those two were the richest people in the world for quite some time. They switch off but normally Bill gates is on top. Well now neither is the number one richest person in the world. Also for the first time the richest man in the world is NOT a united states citizen. Wow, thats a pretty big deal. The man who has beat Bill Gates is a mexican buisness man being refered too by the news people as slim. A family memeber of mine thinks the only way he made all that money in mexico is drugs but I mean I guess its possible to have a couple mexican buisnesses that are that successful. Another things thats diffrent about this an is history does not show him as very charitbale where as bill gates and warren buffet have been big on malaria vaccines and diffrent things to support poor countrys around the world. Anyways this shows the world is changing and people in other countrys around the world can be billionares.

American Idol has been on latley and I havent blogged too much about it. I was a little dissapointed last week when my favorite singers got out. This year most of the female singers are very talented, BUT they sing hippish music that im not a fan of. So I've been rooting for the ones who will give me the music I want to hear. Unfortunetley most all of them are out now. But the two that are left are Paige, and Kaity. Ive been voting like crazy or them. I voted on all four phone systems we have in the house. And they stayed it! Im going to continue to do so, but it was sad that lily god out this week. She was actually very talented but I think she was too weird for america if you know what I mean? Well Watch Tuesdays, Wensdays, and Thursday at 7!

I just got back from my first ever driving lesson. It was a lot harder then I thought but Im happy I finally got to start. I did really well except for I had a problem of turning the steering wheel too much and turning too soon. I practiced in the parking lot of grace cathedral. I perfered that because I felt safe. The cross in the window made me feel like God was looking out for me and helping me which was a good thing! Cross your fingers for me. Ill be driving every day of spring break.

song of the day: Do you remember - Jay sean (its on the radio right now)

quote of the day: To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom

p.s. tonight I go and see Alice in Wonderland!

Barbie world and oscars

Long time no blog. Im sorry sweet readers. How are you? Well to finish up the oscar talk, I gave the best dressed award to Penelope Cruz. She had my most favorite dress and it was very pleasing to me. The award for best actress went to Saundra Bullock for her work in the Blind Side. The award for best actor went to Jeff Bridges. The award for best supporting actress went to Monique. The award for best director went to a woman for the first time. It was the award for the Hurt Locker! So its a pretty big feminist moment taht finally a girl can be a director and be aknowledged for her great works. Not to meantion she beat her ex husband who directed Avitar, that must have been a fantastic plus. But it was a really great award season and I salute all of those fabulous people. There was also a kanye moment that made me laugh. When the white lady does it its not a big deal but when its a black guy the whole world talks about it. Racism??

Speaking of Racism I was watching the cafferty files on cnn today. I dont really look forward to that show in the middle of the day or anything but when its on I listen because he discusses some very intresting topics. Today he was discussing how black barbie dolls sell far less than white barbie dolls. This isen't a recent thing its been going on for centureys. So recently walmart took down the price of black barbie dolls. They are now 2 dollors less than the white ones. This got called to the publics attention on a website called funnyjunk.com. And there was a like and dislike button. For the like side there was 544 thumbs up signs and no one put a thumbs down sign. The photo was supposedly taken at a walmart in louisianna. Reserchers say part of the reason that the black dolls sell for less is because black parents are more likley to be dolls of diffrent races for their kids then white parents. When I was a kid I had all diffrent races of dolls. But I remember my friends only had like one black doll if any. Its really sad that in todays society black is valued less then white. Is there something really wrong with being black? I think its the mind set. But I can relate this to real life...

Right now J.D. had a new girlfriend. Did I meantion it? Well anyways he has this little petite girlfriend. Shes not stick skinny but shes thin. Shes blond with perfectly straight hair, and the cutest outfits. And whenever I see them together I always think in my mind this is how its supposed to be. Hes a good guy and he deserves a girl like that not like me. To me I am the 1.99 barbie and shes the 6 dollor barbie. I know I shouldent think like that but its the truth. I try to get it out of my head and this is the first time i've ever told anyone but thats how ive kind of felt latley. And the truth is just like in these dolls Black men are more likley to pick girls of diffrent races then white men. The white men pick the white dolls, and the black men pick them too. So whos gonna love the black barbie?

song of the day: Barbie Girl

Quote of the day: Laughter is the brush that sweeps away the cobwebs of your heart.

Oscars fasion review

Wow, Wow, Wow, Wow, Wow! The oscars are the biggest night in fashion. The dresses this year are beautiful!! The people that I am always looking out for at the oscars are Penlope Cruz (ever since that stunning pink number 2006), Jennifer Lopez( Since I think it was also 2006 when she wore a light pink adorable dress), and Kate Winslet (sing last year when she wore those fabulous blue dresses). Well once again these 3 woman had phenomenal outfits!! I would pay millions for those dresses.

Penelope Cruz for those of you who dont know is from Spain (one of my favorite countrys) and in spain and other parts of europe she is the face of these stores called Mango that are amazing! But anyways, Today she wore this beautiful Red dress taht was strapless and long. It was very elegant and she kept her name as oscar faves for me. Jennifer Lopez had this really nice white dress. It was long and had a train. The material looked kind of thick but pretty, and on the side of her dress the material was bunched up and formed a gourgeous design. Kate Winslets dress was pretty but not as stunning as I was expecting. Her dress was gold and strapless. She looked great in it and it was a huggy dress, you know the kind of dresses that hug your body. It was nice.

Some other dresses that I thought were to die for were number one Miley cyrus represting us young ones. She had a gold dress that was a certain material on the top then after the chest it became sparkaly and beautiful. She looked very skinny in it though (jealous). Skinnier then usual. Shes gonna be in the last song soon, Im gonna go see it. Cameran Diaz is an iffy dresser to me. Sometimes her dresses are great and other times. But today she outdid herself. It was gold and strapless like all the others but she let her down as did kate winslet. Zoe Saldana had one exactley what people magazine said she would. She was in a purple dress that was suprise suprise, purple. And on the bottom it was fluffy. Look it up it was definatley the most excentric of dresses. Some others that looked great were Mo'nique Sandra bullock (?), Anna Kendrick, Queen Latifa, Precious,and Lautner. Ill try and add more about them but for now im off to watch the oscars

3/7/10

I have a confession. I did something terrible.....Last night I....NOTHING! Why did I start the blog this way? I dont know. But I feel extreme guilt for some reason. I didnt do anything out of the ordinary. Its really weird. Yesturday I went to my brothers birthday party at six o'clock. I wouldent really call it a party. What happened was like 5 or 6 of my brothers frieds from school went swimming at the indoor pool together. Nothing phenomenal really happened. I did some swimming for the first time in awhile and that was pretty nice. I missed actually swimming. You know when you go to the pool with other people you normally end up just kind of standing in water and talking? Well for those of you who do that actually swim. Its refreshing and exhilarating. But anyways it was nice but eventually I got bored and got out and kind of waited for the mini ones to be done.

They finished showered off and then came to our house for awhile for some pizza and cake. It was a hit and they played video games the rest of the night. Boys birthday parties are so weird. I remember my 10th birthday party and it just wasen't like that. Girls want to dance and play games take pictures. Boys just tell lame jokes to each other like, "you know what the funniest thing in the world is? What? Dora shooting barney with a shot gun. hahahahahahahaha". Litterly this one kid said that. I think that cake got to his head. But anyways I know girls at 10 have already started talking about cute boys and stuff. But not the guys, I didn't hear a single meantion of a girl or anything that wasen't cartoon or video game related. Anyways the party went well and afterwards olive came over.

Olive and I messed around with the guitar for a little while. She was really intrested in playing it and stuff. I feel so behind but i've made some goals for between spring break and the end of summer. Im going to be better at the guitar and work on some things with that. And I will learn some more dances. Like how to do all of the single ladies dance, 1,2 step, and all the rest of that kind of thing. It would be a lot of fun. But olive told me something funny. So at the MORP dance there was this slow song. I LOVE the song. Its Take you down by chris brown. I guess its kind of a "nasty" kind fo song but I really like it and its one of my CB jams. So anyways I left the dance floor when that came on because I'm single and I wasen't about to dance with myself. Well anyways olive goes, "did you see those guys?, what guys? you know (insert name here) and them? no I didn't. Well doing that song they got down on the ground and it litteraly looked like they were having sex with themselves. (mariam starts laughing) They were doing the chris brown dance from the video.... " If you see people doing weird dancing during the song their probably doing the original dance. Dont get scared and run k?

I got to see Nargis and Iman today. Their always a lot of fun and their a year older now. You can kind of see the diffrence a year can make. They were craking me up. And AbdulHakim is so cute. Hes gotten bigger and has these adorable eyes. Little kids are fun. I enjoy their company because their not bratty, they dont talk about awkward subjects, and their just 100% good. I think more people should be like children. Even Jesus said "Let the Children come to me and do not hinder them for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these". I memorized those lines around 5th grade when we studied them. For some reason those words stick out to me. Because it made me realize that people should try and be like little kids. Little kids dont punch or shoot each other, they dont cuss each other out, they dont even sing bad songs or anything yet their content and living happy healthy lives. Learn from them and I think your life will be better :)

btw, I still feel guilty. But I did NOTHING!! Maybe im loosing control of my emotion system. Woulden't that suck!

Song of the day: Baby - Justin beiber (He posted this link from two years ago when he was singing chris browns with you and uneditted and stuff. He has a drop dead amazing voice. I am so jealous. Practice can make all your dreams come true. Really it can.)

Quote of the day: Love is a rythem of two hearts beating.

Hey everyone! So I dont know if I meantioned it but there was a dance at my school yesturday. All in all I would give the dance 2.5 out of 5 stars. So if this was on the grading system it would fail. Why you ask? Well it was fun because Olivia gave me a ride and such and some of my friends were there. But there were not that many people total there. At first I wasen't really into dancing because I felt if I did the whole world could see me. It was weird I know, but eventually I did start dancing and I was having a really good time but the issue is a lot of my friends didn't really want to dance. And theres this alicia keys song that talks about how you can have the world on a golden platter but it wont mean anythign without friends to share it with. That was the story of my life yestruday.

I felt like I noticed an absence. 2 of my really really really good friends are dating people now. And i am really happy for them, they have nice guys who treat them like princesses and who mean the world to them. Theres nothing better a person could want for their best friend right?? Well along with me being happy for them I'm also just a little jealous and kind of miss them. Normally part of what makes dances fun is akira and I just kind of talk about boys and crushes and come up with plans we never go through with and its just the funnest thing ever. But yesturday she was buy with Terry and we only got to talk for a little while.. MY other friend was there but she left early which was kind of a downer. So I found myself talking to someone I dont even know that well who used to be my arch enemy about a boy. Sad huh? Which boy was I talking about? Plan. He was the world yesturday.

He looked adorable in this cute hat (Did I meantion I now have this thing for guys who where their hats a certain way, J.D. does it too) and he was wearing this like polo with a tie. He came with a big group of friends though and they were having a really good time together as a group. This blond girl was practically drooling over him. I dont blame her, but you know blonds finish first and mariams always finish last. But I did catch his eye a couple of times and that was nice. I was thinking about asking him to dance to my song (Take you down by Chris Brown) but then O. said I might embarass myself and get my feelings hurt. So I didnt ask, and then the girl who I talked too was like "isen't he ghetto, bad idea!" . I dont understand why all guys who are of color that is some sort of black have to be ghetto. I really think its stupid that just because they happen to wear a sort of thing and cuss that people are just like Oh god! it would be like dating the btk. Latley I just have an attraction to that kind of guy because I realized their more real. I like real, it also seems like they have a lot more fun and not to meantion their super cute. Tell me what you want but i'm going to stick to this for now.

Well I gotta go. Todays my brothers birthday.

song of the day: If I ain't got you - Alicia KEys

quote of the day: Its not how much you do but how much love you put in the doing

end of an era

The M. Ali epic swoon is over. I know you guys are like thank goodness! Im not saying that im over some of those cute guys I spent like the last month talking about but im done being like boys, boys, boys boys. I dont really know what got into me, but I realized that the constant swooning was not getting me anywhere. I know, I know I should have realized it a long time ago but I didn't. Anyways i'm sure your all jumping with joy.

This is the first blog in a long time and theres a lot of things I need to talk about. Yesturday night was the choir concert!! I had a really amazing time. I sang a total of 5 songs, 2 of which were in english, and the other three were in french,and Italian. My favorite was the song in english which was Still I rise. That one was kind of a gospelish, Black choir peice and we had 4 amazing soloists. I wish I had auditioned because I really like the song but I got very nearvous. Anyways the show was great and Still I rise was definatley one of the highlights along with the mens choir peice called "It's hard to be humble". The song is all about how attractive they are and stuff and how its hard to be humble. They also did the cutest motions. Everyone was laughing out loud. The concert was a sucsess and you should all try to catch the tape. There was someone out in the audience....

Part of the reason I haven't been blogging is because for the last few days, every spare moment I had I've been reading the time Travelers Wife. That book is so phenomenal. It has the sci-fi aspect thats not a hundred percent unbelivable. You get into the lives of Henrey and Clare from many diffreny ages. Its one of the best bok i've read in a while. Everyone go pick it up.

song of the day: Glitter in the Air - Pink

quote of the day: "whats white trash" - German Exchange student. "Well theres 3 kinds, some are dirt poor, some are really ugly, smelly, and dirt poor, and some are just neandrathals" - Guy who sits behind me in spanish

3/1/10 Happy First of March everybody

Hello World! Hows it going? Im going to assume you would all be nice enough to write it back so here we go, everythings going good for me. Well good enough for a monday. I went to bed pretty happy/ indesisive! I finally solved the mystery of the picture. Did I talk to you guys about that? Ok well there is this picture taz took of me in barcelona. I'm in a red dress, with black leggings. My hair is half up and half done with my bangs in front and im wearing one of those cute bow headbands. The outfit is a 4 star, it would be 5 but I was just wearing flats with it. Any how, I'm standing in the ocean, you can see the sand and the water is this perfect shade of blue. My hair also happens to be blowing in the wind :) You cant see my face because im facing the medeteranian sea but its the must gorgeous pic ever.

So over christmas taz got a labtop and she photoshoped it and made what was the most perfecct picture even more perfect. I had no idea she was doing this but one day she texted me about my favorite song lyrics and I sent her some. Long story shortish (sorry I have an isue keeping things short) she edited it with the lyrics to hero, my favorite song. its amazing. But for like 2 months we haven't been able to figure out what was up but I know now :) And im very very hapy that I do......Helpful people are great!

Ok so im going to take you guys back a couple days. Natashas birthday party? Well for ahwile I was the only teenager amoung some adorable african kids but anyways I was observing it. And amoung these african kids there was one blond girl and latley i've had a little jealousy problem with the blond girl who stole one of my non important crushes hearts. Shes what would be described as a "blue eyed beauty" (puke). Anyways there she was in child form, but it was intresting the diffrences between the kids. For starters there was michael jackson music playing and all the little african kids were like "YES! Michael jackson!" and she was oblivious. Then the other kids started dancing in the little kid way you know. Some of them attempting to moon talk.

Well blondie gets on the dance floor and starts doing ballet . It was the cutest thing but her mom was really embarassed.Another instance was that the brithday girl was all made up with a ton of make up and looked just gorgeous. So the other kids are like me too! mee too! So someone put makeup on them too. All of them except little anika (blond). it was just intresting to see the diffrence between some kids. Some of them are really shy and didnt say two words. Others were super loud and confident. Its funny how personalities shine from people so new to the world.

song of the day: Hero - Enrique Iglasias

quote of the day: Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.